It's Quiet in the Top End

Time started: 01:48
Place: Alawa (Living Room)
Listening to: Tank filter
Weather: Cool and crisp
Mood: Yearning

I just realised I haven't updated my blog since before my exam last year. It is a ridiculously long time.

So here's a quick update on what has been happening with my life:

I got a distinction for my exam. Overall I did a solid performance and the audience enjoyed it. Lucinda was proud of me. I'm happy.

I made a move back up to Darwin. Mark made the move with me. He decided it was time for a new chapter in his life and try his luck finding a job up there. Moving back in with mum for the first few months was a little difficult at first. It was a very stormy road for the both of us and Mark was a good buffer.
Within a couple of months, Mark found two jobs. One as a part-time sales assistant at Best & Less, and one as a part-time lab technician at CDU. Within the next month or two he should be getting a full time job at CDU for medical research.

I had my graduation ceremony in April. It was nice to see some of my friends again and look around my home of five years once more.

I've been busy with university. I completed my first semester of my Graduate Diploma in Teaching and Learning. Only one semester to go and I will become a registered teacher.

Living back in the top end has been nice. I enjoy the constant warm weather, the beaches, the sunshine, the easy, laid-back lifestyle. It is a good reminder of  how much I've missed home. I do miss my friends in Adelaide though. I miss the buzz of restaurants in the evenings, the coffee, and the festivals.

Nature up here is definitely better. I think it's the perfect balance of metropolitan life and the wilderness. Shan Shan made a visit up here. My friends and I took her to the Mindil Beach Markets, Litchfield National Park, and just bummed around, mostly. I also go to see Eliza for the first time in years. She was delighted to see Kylie expecting. Only 9 days until Kylie's son's due date! I am really excited to meet him.

I have been super clucky lately. I don't know why...maybe it's just the age I'm at. Most of the time I'm thinking about puppies more often than babies but now it's the other way around.

I bought two fish tanks and am now a proud owner of 17 fish and a snail. I've become a little bit crazy over them. I'm looking after them like a paranoid mother. Imagine what I would be like when I actually become a mother! All hell would break loose!

I miss Levon. I haven't spoken to him much at all this year. I am lucky to speak to him once or twice a week. What is scary is I'm starting to get used to his absence. I hate this feeling. I want to need him like I used to. There used to be so many things I was dying to tell him but these days life just kind of rolls by and I don't have that need any more...we don't say much to each other. We're not unhappy, but we don't talk much. It scares me that we will run out of things to say one day and realise how unhappy we are together. I don't want that to happen because I like to believe that he is the love of my life and we are destined to be together. I love him so much...

I don't know...I guess when I'm just talking to him through a computer screen, I'm not really talking to him. It's just virtual reality. Even though it's simulated by the real him, it's just not the same. I'm sure that in real life it would be much easier. Is it bad to feel scared about our relationship? I mean, if we're so in love with each other and we're right for each other, we shouldn't feel scared at all, right? I hate over-thinking things all the time.

I hope I can see him soon...it's been just about a year since we last saw each other...
Saying goodbye to him at the airport was extremely hard...I never want to say goodbye to him like that again but I know it will happen again.

I think I deserve an award for having the longest long-distance relationship possible with the least frequencies of seeing each other...man, I really hope we're right for each other...

Time finished: 02:05
Mood: A little depressed